From the Mango Tree. Her book of devotionals for homeschooling parents will be released by Judson Press in late summer 2011.
“But Peter followed him at a distance…” Matthew 26:58
The rush hour traffic inched along bumper to bumper. Though I had factored in enough time, I couldn’t help glancing at the clock on the dashboard every few minutes.
After allowing a couple of cars to enter the stream of traffic at a McDonald’s entrance, I moved in to close the gap. The nose of a beaten-up, once grey Honda Civic shot out of McDonald's and began to edge its way between our van and the SUV in front of us—space I didn’t think existed.
“What's he doing?” I gasped as I hit the brakes and my tween screamed.
Trapped, I held my breath waiting for the sickening crunch of metal on metal. My grip on the steering wheel relaxed as the car squeezed through and made a sharp turn into the next lane. I exhaled.
“That was close, Mom.” My tween’s voice broke the heavy silence.
I nodded and glanced at her in the rear view mirror.
We drove on, my mind still on the incident. "Didn't I close up the gap? Yet, it was large enough to let a car, even a tiny one sneak in.” After a few minutes, Matthew 26:58 flashed through my mind, “But Peter followed him at a distance….” New thoughts probed. “Is there a distance between Jesus and me? If I followed Him closer, would there be room for doubts and fears? How would my life—my writing and my homeschooling change—if I followed close behind?”
Life’s currents often sweep me along. Schedules, deadlines, and to-do-lists drive me, at times against my will. I begin to fall further behind my Lord. Before I know it, there’s a glaring chasm. Yet, the Master bids me to abide in Him (John 15:4). That implies a deep communion, a closeness of relationship—one that leaves no space for distance to develop.
“Lord, help me follow so close behind You that when You stop, we collide.”