(Reposted thanks to Dina Sleiman)
"He dams up the streams from flowing, And what is hidden he brings out to the light." Job 28:11
At that time in my life I was running a Bible club out of my house and saw lots of children come to Christ for the first time. I was an AWANAS leader and Sunday school teacher at church and was blessed to lead other children into the church fold. It was a time in my life that I thought I was doing everything right by God.
Instead of reward, I was met with a total damming of my life. I was given final rejections on a novel I could have sworn God led me to write. My serene life as a stay at home mom was over in the blink of an eye when I found out my husband had been fired and was on his way to another state to start rehab. I hadn't even known he had a drug problem.
Over the next few years the writing was no more than a trickle. Church fell by the wayside as did the Bible club that had been such a beacon of light for children in my neighborhood as I got my shaky footing and went back to work to support my family. My husband eventually asked for a divorce and my life was over as I knew it.
That was a dark time in my life. The darkest. I knew God hadn't forsaken me. I had that head knowledge but my heart ached and questioned.
That's when I began to read Job's story again with fresh eyes and God gave me that verse as His explanation. So much sin in my heart was revealed to me at that time of dammnation--pride, idolatry (publishing related), and a host of others, as well as all that was wrong at the time in my husband's heart and life.
Through that damming, true to His word, God revealed what was hidden. Once it was, the clean up could begin. Boy did it.
It was in the aftermath of this that I began to write Crossing Oceans. The story of the dying mother was really the story of a dying wife, Sunday school teacher, mother and, yes, writer. But our God is one of glorious resurrection.
Is God damming your life right now? If so, it may feel more like damning, but trust Him. He won't let you go, and He WILL use all things, no matter how ugly, for your good.
And when the stream is allowed to flow again, the waters will be so much cleaner, cooler, and nourishing to all who drink of them. Especially to you. Especially to Him.